Agency

He says, you’re no mystery to me; I know who you are
The trust I have for him I can throw him as far
His eyes always half open hiding secrets beneath
His hair all around him…

Before I caught myself I almost fell
Enraptured by the sound of the rattlesnake’s tail
I wanted to be bitten, experience the poison
Let it course through my veins, allow the pain to seep in

I allowed him to fill all my vacancies
Create in me a false intimacy
And before I relinquished my destiny
I withdrew and restored my agency

*Power comes not from reciprocity
but from the respect for myself I am able to maintain each time I choose to put my heart at risk. I will overcome you